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Jan. 9th, 2005 @ 05:24 am (no subject)
maybe i will get drunk at my sister's (s) 30th birthday, be a slut, eat too much, chug orange juice at 5:30 am, and shiver to death because its too cold in my stomach, good to know you, my friend, are not worth shit. operation you can fuck off for the remainder of my life can start now. and with in 10 minutes 4 different people offered me a ride home. and i should of died when i was 14 anyway.


meh. i dont remember most of the things i've been saying these nights. i dont mean most of them, and i know half of the things i say are just horrible and ridiculous and i only say them so that i feel as though i am the one controlling your distaste for me. (oh, and all the shit i've been doing. words, holy fucking, there is a boatload(yesthatisright, a BOATLOAD of no good scummy actions that have well, acted themselves out from my... self) ugh.

i suppose i shall make an attempt to grow up now maybe.

(oh, and ps: get pissed off at me because i have barely been talking to anyone for the past month ( havent really been saying much lately anyhow, havent really, really talked (real conversation. truthful, with me not being scared and crazylike, havent really talked to anyone since the middle of october). and it's mainly because i finally had a nervous breakdown at the beginning november (surprise!!!), and i have been recouporating ever since, so now you know. but don't worry. i have been rediagnosed, and it's nothing too original.) (this is all about right, i guess) (and im still a little eh to not be so truthful right now. but, really, i officially have nothing to lose), but meh, come near me now, it is a sure thing that i will push you away. so yeah, you might as well not bother. i currently strive for people to be disapointed in me, and to think less of me by the second. yeah. so. meh.
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From:plummytucker
Date:January 9th, 2005 03:42 am (UTC)
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don't start talking like that, it makes me upset.
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From:mauraahh
Date:January 9th, 2005 05:30 am (UTC)
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sigh
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From:infinityxcubed
Date:January 9th, 2005 08:23 am (UTC)
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call me when you wake up, or IM me, please?
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From:sugartimes5
Date:January 9th, 2005 08:48 am (UTC)
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oh that was such a good entry!!!!!!!!!!
wanna hang out
i won't tell anyone to hang up on you...............................
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From:stawbryjacquiri
Date:January 9th, 2005 09:42 am (UTC)
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please be ok...I love you...and I'm sorry but I don't think I can ever be truly disappointed in you....and I'm ok with sitting in silence with you when I get back...we can watch the stars and hold hands...or we can walk down the middle of the roads and we will shiver together...and neither of us will be alone...


<3333
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From:brazenovertures
Date:January 10th, 2005 05:59 am (UTC)
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control your use of parentheses, miss.
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From:mauraahh
Date:January 13th, 2005 02:16 am (UTC)
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no way punctuation overuse drives me wild, and i like it that way.
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From:cotton_eyedjew
Date:January 10th, 2005 11:23 am (UTC)
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wow, you definitely overuse your parenthesis. i find them comforting, but maybe that's just me.
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From:_brandie
Date:January 10th, 2005 04:44 pm (UTC)

intresting

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we both have had mental breakdowns over the past month, and have stopped talking to everyone. i miss you maura. These are the things i miss about you:
<3 You amazing smile
<3 the way you jumble talk, and the way i understand everything that you say
<3 our shared love for maia, the beauty
<3 the way you take me on crazy adventures in the the wilds of worcester, and dare not take me home before the sun comes put
<3 the fun i have with you
<3 the love you make me have for you
<3 YOOOOOOU!!!
i misss you so much, more and more! I really wish we did end up hanging out on sunday! How come that didn't happen? it made me sad! it really did!
Call me soon, so we can make plans for this weekend!
<3brandie
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From:lilacsmack
Date:January 10th, 2005 05:23 pm (UTC)
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i don't believe in diagnosis.

existance is what language you use to describe it.

14? HAH!!!!!!
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From:lesingeviolet
Date:January 10th, 2005 06:09 pm (UTC)
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Maura. I miss you so much. Funnieness is not even an issue. So much,
Maura. I'm dialing your number now. You better answer.
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